#%$#@%^@#%@% why on earth did i procrastinate so much... Q^Q i wanna do my project works, tidy up my stuff, wash my bags and stuff, BUT... i just can't leave google chrome - with all the tabs on, from not just my mangas, and also my games. ZzZz i'm seriously dead meat liao lor. project work, urgent -> 3D model of nami(from one piece), with texturing, lighting, etc, done. (just started modelling the head, and leave entire thing there... T^T the hell... my computer desk's a mess. so is my clothes for these past couple of weeks. i'm in a very bad mood too, since i think i gotten a haircut that doesn't suit me, and i gt kinda pissed off at that guy's laughter, esp when he keep laughing - or obviously holding back his laughter - or obviously being sarcastic just so it'll be over, when i'm choosing my new specs. i know i got bad tastes, so i'm ok if he laughs at that, but he also laughs at the designs my mum chooses, and those he choose. -_- kns. waste time sia. say so nice, that i like the design can liao, in the end still laugh like that, look so weird and want to criticise so much then u choose lah. #%@$#%!@%$@#2$@%#^ and in the end we go another spec shop, and this time say just take the one that u like, and get it, and now what ? say the specs design look like it's for rich aunties one. oi, come on lah, i know now the fashion is huge black plastic frames specs, but my small face doesn't suit those plastic specs, it look super weird. so obviously i'm left with normal metal frames, and i don't really like plain designs. i can't simply choose a baby pink plain frame like i used to do at this age, can i? (i actually tried wearing that a few years back, and everyone though i was recycling my old frames... ) god damn it. and i had a stupid nightmare not long ago too... u know, i'm afraid of mainly 3 things only, (1)bees/wisps , (2)darkness/blindness, (3)blood. and to think that my nightmare is full of the top of the list... and it felt so freaking real... and it's damn annoying that my sore throat, till so long, still haven't heal, F*ck up sia, i wanna eat my chocolate, and cook tons of things to eat like i usually do... my food all like going spoil liao sia. T^T this world... is so meaningless. if only virtual reality gaming came true, i'd stay in there and won't come out till i needed to... come to think of it.. i had a dream abt virtual reality recently... let's look for my fb post - coz i can't rmb much of it, u know how dreams fade from memories... what a weird dream... ... virtual reality is used for school - so that the students can freely explore what they want to do, and not get hurt in reality - meaning, let's say, a chemical explosion, etc. but dying in this virtual school means getting 15 levels deducted. levels are earned through experience, which is through the marks they gotten with the grades of tests/exams/critics/projects/etc, and the more stuff you did, even if lousy, you'll get more experience. there's this weird apple tree that'll produce golden apples, and the moment that virtual reality world has 3, it'll only produce normal apples. having the golden apples means that when the student holding it dies, their level wouldn't get deducted. ranking in school is decided through the level, and once the student reached level 100, then they can go for itp. it is an offence to kill somebody, unless they insulted the entire school (by school it means something like 'school of design', 'school of business', etc. , in which case, the people who's insulted can kill them and anyone who appears to have the same thinkings. so, those are the rules of the dream i had. and now the actual dream... :d we're getting a tour of a part of the huge virtual reality school (i can't remember why, but part of it is a factory, part nature, part playground - those huge climbing kind that can rarely be found), and the teacher suddenly say that there are 2 other schools in front, and they're playing some kind of spray snow game (you know, that thing for christmas), and that he'll allow us to go join in, though we have to return later to continue with it, and the whole group just disappear in a blink of an eye, except the teacher and some students, who walked in the same direction as those who disappear, but not run, so i sorta encourage them into running, and we appear at that area soon enough, and someone handed me a snow spray, in which i quickly start spraying at those wearing different shirts than me (dun ask me why, but apparently different school wear different shirt), for some reason they started using some kinda battle formation, and we simply just do what we want, though we're not losing in any way, and soon, one of them got fed up, and point at the box of english exam result and say that it doesn't matter if they lost or win, since in the end, their english is always better than ours. (they were distributing exam results - with the exam paper when the spray snow fight started), but it wasn't a direct insult, so i grab each of them one by one, asking them how big/important is english to them, and say that english isn't even that important to us, so long others can understand what we're saying. it wasn't long before quite a number of them insulted our whole school, and one of us yell killing time, and we took out weapons and started hunting them, and they're not strong enough to fight back, after all, quite a percentage of us are from the gaming course, and obviously we had play plenty of games where we fought against tons of monsters/players at the same time. the leader of their group has 3 golden apples, and thinking that the apple will prevent them from dying if eaten, i chopped of her head, and when she still moves, i chopped her mouth, and her hand. so they die, and went to the reviving point, which had a olden china design to it, and also, that's where the golden apples can be found. we ran there, and when they revived... i woke up... lols. ahhh.. damn it all. screwed up world. T^T if only what i imagine can and will come true, that'll be so much fun.